Wolffe's Ways

Every time I have been on the phone it has acted weird(and this has been just with friends and family) so trying to do phone calls that are business oriented is out. :( I am not pleased. I am hoping that lordvyle will figure it out when he gets home. I think it is the battery... I am charging it now.:(

I really need a vacation from this house. Not one day at the pool but a full blown vacation. I feel like I'm not really in control of this place anymore. When I mention my needs they don't get met anymore and that sucks. I would like to feel that I live in a house of equals but that obviously is no longer so.

The cat is really ticking me off. So about two weeks ago I put her on a diet because frankly, she is fat. So I cut her food and she started to get more energetic and more like the cat she was when she moved in with us. Joy to the world. Right? Except she is constantly begging for food. I mean it. Constantly it's like she thinks if she begs enough I will cave in. Not only that but she wants in the house then out of the house then back in and out and in and out. Over and over and over again. Like a kid on steroids. I'm sick and tired of it. I'll be trying to write or do art and she'll be scratching at the door and meowing to such an extent that it interferes with my flow of thought. I'm about to go insane. Really. *sighs* She gulps all her food in the morning and then wants more at night. So I decided that I'd give her half this morning and half tonight. She gulped this morning's food in a heartbeat and has been begging ALL DAY LONG. I'm about to go nuts. I mean it. But if I cave and give her tonight's food she'll just beg for more tonight. So, now I get to deal with her begging all fucking day. I'm not happy. At all. I want to kill this cat. Now you have to realize that I love my cat. Really I love her. She is my pride and joy. From the day I got her into my home. And I spoil her rotten, she has a condo, a cat tree and a little thing to camp in. It's not like she doesn't have stuff to entertain herself with. But she is ignoring all of that just to bug the living crap out of me at the moment. So yeah. *sighs* I want a new life right now. Really I do. I didn't even get the nap I intended to earlier because she just leaped up onto me and sat there looking at me each time I went to lay down. So now? I have the headache from Hel. Grrr...

214. Put a little distance between causes and effects.

Ha ha. Nothing on the computer has worked right for me this morning. Adobe.com has done nothing but close down on me. Yeah. I can't get flash 9 because the site won't even fuction. Nice. *Sighs* Then there is what went on with the picture of Urd that I created. Don't even want to go there. What a pain in my ass. *sighs* Nice. I am about to pull out my hair as it were. I have a headache and I want to scream. Jimmy oh Jimmy how do you get right on target? That is really what I want to know. I'm going to do something creative for a few minutes anyway before getting ready for the Hare Krishna Experience. You bet.

I went to a High School where a lot of rich kids went and a lot of them went on Christmas Break to go Skiing. My family never did, but a lot of them did. So this is kind of what I imagined it would be like from some of the stuff I heard around school. With a good bit of fantasy thrown in and some sour grapes too... Being one of the only Jews in the school and never getting to celebrate a holiday that got rubbed in my face year after year... Yes, folks it's another 'story style poem'

The snow begins
and the skiers
start pouring in,
it's winter in Aspen...
At night
the doors are locked tight
and in ever window
a light
glows ever-bright,
romance is in the air,
in fact
it's everywhere...
Ski slopes
are abound
with ski bunnies
just waiting
for the right guy
to come around.
Honeymooning newlyweds
snuggle by warm
cozy fires;
dreaming
of their life
that lies ahead,
together.
As they exchange
shy glances
the fire leaps and dances.
The bars filled
by quite a few
looking for
a meaningful relationship
or two.
It's now
December 25
and the party scene
is coming alive!
the hotels
are all decked out,
wreathes are hung
on all the doors,
eggnog punches
are made
from secret family recipes
in bunches.
Pine trees
are being strung
with popcorn decorations,
Christmas carols
are being sung,
there's peace
and goodwill
toward everyone!
Hooray,
it's Christmas in Aspen today!
Now's the time
to live it up
and to celebrate,
in the days that follow
Christmas
and New Years
you can bet
you won't be
feeling too great;
In fact,
you'll probably
be living
on coffee
and old fashion
aspirin!
It's Christmas in Aspen...
Written by, Ayla Wolffe(sometime in the eighties)©2008

284. Tides at war.

I have to say this is probably in relation to thinking back again today about my ex-husband and what life was like when he was alive... And to a certain extent about the permanent affect he has had on my sons. It makes me want to go to war all over again. There is never a true moment in the heart of a mother that she doesn't want to protect her son(or daughter)no matter how old they get. Yeah. *sighs* I wish I could go into more serious detail here but frankly, I'm too pissed right now to seriously write about it. And part of it would be breaking confidences of others too so that is not going to happen. Some things you just have to fight on your own, silently. And that causes it to be that much the harder. Yeah. Shit happens. The ironic part? I'm seeing my mom today. I get to give her, her b-day presents and her Mother's Day present today. Go me.