Wolffe's Ways

I used to try very hard to be there for folks in 3CG but the fact is they haven't done very well by me. Almost no one has bothered to keep up with me with the exception of one or two people. And I mean that. whereismypraire has kept up with me probably more than anyone else except jackietheknife & monkeyman and they live with me. She keeps up with me when she has the time. No one and I mean no one has even tried. So screw 3CG.  I left my schedule for blots, and classes for K-9 flexible so that people from 3CG would possibly be able to attend. And other than avangrdnpriestes who lived with me at the time, not one person from the grove did dirt. So screw them. But they want people to go to their things and become members and they require people to go to so fucking many of their rites in a year before they even consider them up for membership. If they can't even come to a single blot from my Kindred they can go jump in a lake. Reciprocation is required in my world. That's part of being in any kind of relationship, otherwise, there is nothing.

298. Let's get together and do it again.

Well yesterday I went to a Three Cranes Rite. Which was nice. Somewhat tense as avngrdnpriestes and I pretty much did everything we could not to associate with one another or even say hello. It was stupid. I probably will not be attending very many more 3CG rites in the future. But that's ok. I have the Hare Krishnas and I enjoy associating with them. I'm sure she's counting on that. Whatever. When the time comes that there are few enough people in a place that you want to associate with, it's time to hang up the towel frankly. And it just isn't what it used to be. I wish I could say I want to keep going, part of me really, really does. But the fact of the matter is, that it's not worth it. It really just is not worth it. :( I want more out of life than trying to split myself three ways anyway. I never really was big on eclecticism. I can't say I'm unkind to eclectics, but it takes a huge amount of energy to go here, then there, then over to another place too... It's a huge commitment actually. And I have committed myself to making K-9 work. So sorry folks. Something has to go. Yeah. At any rate... This may all sound like I'm letting myself be driven out of something I like but this is not so. I can still go whenever I have the time or energy. But I'm just not going to put a huge part of my conscious effort toward it anymore. And I'm not going to up and renew my plea for membership at all. Period. I just bought a membership in Fyrnsidu, which is much closer to my heart than Druidism... So that's that. End of story. Yeah.